A Story I’ve Never Told Anyone

So I have a story about my friend who committed suicide on the 21st and I haven’t ever shared it with anyone, but I feel like I really need to get it out. You don’t actually have to read this post, just keep scrolling. I’m writing it because I really want it written down, not because I need others to read it.

I was a senior in high school and it was mid December. He picked me up in his family’s Lexus and our first stop was to McDonald’s. Even though he came from a wealthy family, he hated to spend money. Instead, he found a way to pay for everything we wanted in coupons. While we ate and talked about our lives he drove us to the mall. We had a good time, he offered to carry my bags, he made stupid jokes, he made me laugh a hundred times I’m sure. Then came the beautiful part of the evening, the part that I will never forget as long as I live. We had dated a year before this amazing night and had remained friends afterward, barely skipping a beat. Though our friendship was always a little more than platonic. We continued to flirt for years after we broke up, but this night in particular was magical.

We got back to town right as we returned to our quiet suburban town Kissed You by Gloriana began to play and I sung a long with the familiar chorus, “I should have kissed you, I should have pushed you up against the wall. I should have kissed you, just like I wasn’t scared at all.”

Without hesitation he pulled into a parking lot and didn’t stop until we were behind the movie theatre.

"What are we doing here?" I asked.
“Get out and I’ll show you.” I laughed assuming it was one of his typical jokes and stepped out of the car. He turned the radio up and got out himself. Then he led me to the brick wall of the theatre and pushed me against it before putting his lips against mine. The song was still playing in the background as we kissed. It was probably the most romantic thing in the world. I’ll never forget it. I’ll never forget him. He was unique. He was special. He meant so much to me and I hope he knew it. I’ll spend forever recalling memories like this about him. I’ll spend forever laughing as I tell those stories. He’s brought me so many smiles over the years, and they are going to continue much after his death.